Why I will probably not reconvert

My reasons for deconverting from Christianity were not the most iron-clad reasons. They were good, good enough to get me out of religion, but in general they left a bit of wiggle-room for reconverting. But I've done some reading up on religion since deconverting, and my reasons for staying atheist, and in particular non-Christian, are much stronger now. I want to talk about them here.

First and foremost: I find the Christian God, as described in the Bible, detestable. He blatantly endorses slavery, rape, and genocide. I find all of those things morally abhorrent and can never worship a god, real or false, that does such monstrous things to people. Jesus, claiming to be one and the same with this God, is also therefore culpable for these injustices. As an atheist, I find that the old Biblical texts make a lot more sense in the light that they were dreamed up, edited, and amended by bronze-age people who worshiped a local creator deity named El and, later, a jealous war god named Yahweh who they merged into Elohim. The New Testament makes more sense as the frantic assemblage of at least one apocalyptic dead rabbi's teachings, spiced up and modified many years after eyewitness accounts had faded from memory. If I understand my research correctly, this is what historians think happened, and I can't go back to glibly assuming that the Bible was magically conjured from God himself.

Second: I have no understanding of how one would gain real knowledge of any god. Prayer strikes me as being wholly unreliable. I could list many contradictory, delusional, nonsensical, and often horrendous things people have sworn God has said to them. I and people I know have been driven to suicidal levels of depression because they were trying to do "what God told them." Personal prayer is thus a travesty, and intercessory prayer has not been proven to change anything. I know of no holy books that aren't just as flawed, contradictory, or nonsensical, or fabricated whole-cloth. Religious authority and tradition is similarly untrustworthy, even when they're not outright corrupt. Without relying on prayer, scriptures, or authority, I would not even know where to begin to try to conjure up knowledge of a deity that has any effect on my life.

Third: I am far happier as an atheist. It would take a monstrous level of evidence to convince me to return to the terrifying, guilt-inducing, anti-intellectual mindset I was trapped in for 20-odd years of my life. Intellectual honesty made me get out, and anything short of explicable evidence in the existence of deities will cause me to go back in. Otherwise I will feel like I'm lying to myself, and that's a feeling I can't stand.